Wow. Just. Wow. (Good wow)

I legitimately just spent about a half an hour on tumblr. Which, for me, is big, because I'm not a tumblr person. But, just for shits and giggles, I decided I'd create a new "thinspo" tumblr to keep me going. Let's face it, this past week as been pretty shitty. I see differences, but the scale doesn't, and unfortunately, I've been getting really down on myself about it all. 

Being on tumblr today though, looking through the "FITspo" (new term I'm adopting, rather than thinspo), made me realize something.

Part of losing weight isn't just about going through the motions and doing everything right. You also have to be in the right mindset, which I haven't been. I started out there, sure, but as the weeks start to pass, I'm getting more and more critical about everything that I do and eat. Which of course is only stressing me out, which in turn makes the weight linger. 

So, I'm not gonna go there anymore. I'm not going to get on my scale every morning (yeah, yeah, I know. I shouldn't, but I'm a little obsessed) and hate myself for supposedly gaining a pound. My scale and me? We're gonna see some other people. Do some other things, and we'll see each other once a week. That's it. In between, I'm going to feel the way my body tells me to feel. 

My jeans? They're getting looser. Almost by the day. I'm developing a case of what I like to call "saggy-ass," where the ass of my jeans just . . . sags, and no longer holds the position of where my butt actually is.

And I'm going to stop beating myself up over having a small piece of lasagna, or sushi every few days or so. Something that I honestly forgot is that one pound is the equivalent to 3500 calories. There's no way that a small piece of lasagna and 500 calories worth of sushi is making me gain the mystery weight. Evidently, my body is reacting to something else, and it's not a matter of not doing anything right, it's a matter of my body just saying "Oh, hey, today? Yeah. Just avoid the scale, trust me, you don't wanna see that number, but I'm okay! Really!"

Also? Water. Water, water, water. It's a beautiful substance that I don't drink nearly enough of. I've started carrying my water bottle around with me almost everywhere that I go. The problem is, I almost always either leave it in my bag, or on the desk, and don't touch it. I'm just never thirsty.

However. I noticed on Tumblr - every time I saw something about drinking water . . . I drank some water. My water bottle is now almost empty, and I've peed twice since starting work at 9:00 this morning. Lots of water + lots of trips to the bathroom = flushing out lots of toxins. Go. Me. I'm officially going to post more things around the office about drinking water, making sure that I actually do it. 

So. Here's an augmentation to my New Years resolution: It's not just about losing weight. It's about feeling good. It's about thinking yourself fit. I will not get on the scale every morning and beat myself up over numbers. I will go by what my body and my clothes start to tell me.

That being said, bring it on, bitches.