Day four, and the feelings are blah.

I hate the days when you can feel the ghost of a double chin that used to haunt you attempting to make a comeback.

Again, the thing that I loved most about Italy was just how slender my face had become. I had serious structure workin' for a bit there. I'm grateful for the bone structure I have, somehow, on my good days, I make a very square jawline work. In Italy, that was just about every day. Haha.

Sometimes, it makes me think of those stupid neck things that they were selling a while ago, where it sits on your chest, and by moving your chin up and down on this spring loaded contraption, it made your chin and neck area slimmer. Now. I'm not stupid. I know there's absolutely no way to spot reduce. Whatever you lose comes off wherever the hell it feels like coming off (which is annoying, but I'll take just about anything right now), and I just think it's funny how people buy into the scam of it all.

My goal is to get to where I need to be, then focus on toning. Sure, once I have the time to really spend some time working out religiously, I'm going to be doing some light body lifting for toning, but again, I know how my body works. If I want to make sure that my stomach pooch goes away, I'm going to have to work out until it decides to go away. Won't stop me from doing a million and one crunches, because a tiny piece of me still prays that somehow it'll help make it go away faster, but I know that overall health and total reduction of fat is what counts.

My eating habits today were pretty good, I would say. I kinda had a bit much mayo today (tuna salad for lunch, and turkey salad for dinner), but snacking was kept to a minimum! Breakfast was a cranberry-pomegranate wheat bagel, lunch was a tuna wrap from school (okay, so I didn't feel like a salad today), and dinner was a homemade turkey salad sandwich on wheat bread, and a can of reduced sodium soup. I did have two small pieces of halva today, but I had a presentation and simply couldn't resist. I also had a banana and a skinny cow ice cream sammich for desert.

. . . Not . . . too bad. Right?

. . . I gotta re-read my nutrition notes. Blah.

Well. That's pretty much it. I'm a little afraid to weigh myself. I kinda don't want to know yet, seeing as I haven't really done much. Slow and steady wins the race, I know, but it's all still a little frustrating.

Blah!